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20/6/2025

alot has been going on this month. honestly been so depressed and busy and tired i cant even find joy or energy to update this place. here are some of the reasons why:

media of the week ramble #4

9/6/25 3:33am

before i go to sleep i want to talk about the media of the week i've chosen (again).

CITY OF LOST SOULS is a musical comedy released in 1983. i like to call it a trans punk musical because thats exactly what it is, extremely rebellious and a true piece of transgressive art.
i adore this film so much. i finally got to watch it and i am just in awe. i'm going to copy and paste my letterboxd review here.

it's beautifully colourful, sparkly and camp. transgressive and progressive. angie stardust i love you. a film where trans women arent the butt of the joke? this is such an underrated gem. there are just as many profound moments in this as there are ones to laugh at.

(putting my own words in italics... who do i think i am? jk i only did it to signify which words came from the review!)

here are some screencaps from the film. check it out if you can!!

WILD PLANET BY THE B-52'S - not much in common with the film but i want to focus on gay/trans musicians this month and im pretty sure all the remaining members are gay.

they also have a reputation for being a gimmick band because of rock lobster and love shack, but i think the b-52's are just really kitschy and camp they kind of match the essence of city of lost souls.

here is a performance i love from them (from the album!)

i think we all need each other more than ever

9/6/25

i dont usually make posts like these on here but this world is so cruel. it has been for a long time but i have to reiterate how evil this world is.

the madleen kidnapped because they want to deliver aid to people going through a genocide and essentially break the seige on gaza.

jonathan joss (the voice of john redcorn on king of the hill) pleading with people at a reunion panel he was not invited to (already bad in it self) telling them his house was burnt down only for him to die in a racist, homophobic attack a few days later.

the rising anti immigrant enforcements happening, the growing transphobia - these things never went away but as more evil people come into places of power these things embolden those who had hidden how they felt about colonalism and genocide and marginalised people over the past 10 years to come back out and feel proud about it.

and i hate that people will look back and just say "how could this gone on? how did it happen?". i ask the same questions everyday. how does this shit go on!!? all i can say is those of us who care need to continue to fight back - work towards liberating those living under occupation (PALESTINE, SUDAN, CONGO) and those having our rights stripped away from us, and even if they arent rights for us, fight for those who are losing them.

i've compiled a list of resources for this kind of thing, still getting to putting up on here.

required viewing (after you read the post below)

7/6/2025

really think these videos should be down as required viewing or something. they say what im trying to say in a much better and concise way

THE FIGHT FOR AUTHENTICITY IN FASHION BY RIAN PHIN

THIRTEEN AND THE LOLITA EFFECT BY YHARA ZAYD

irony, controversial indie cinema decontextualised and hypocrisy

I wanted to write something about this... trend? of marketing that is taking inspiration from and referencing super controversial indie films and how i think the digital age and social media and its aid in decontextualising these scenes has contributed to this.

movies movies movies i love movies!!

3/6/25

wanted to watch all the films in my pride '25 watchlist but i really want to rewatch mulholland drive, ringu and the english remake?? anyways i hope i can get through them all this month. im strangely excited....