i started this update on november 4th. it is now december 17th

saves me from having to do more coding ( i was kind of dreading having to come up with a new theme.)

currently on my period. have 2 essays due in the new year and my professor is giving me a hard fucking time over one of them. im at the point of just wanting to not fucking fail.

christmas sucks and especially does now because this is the second christmas without my mum. i know im going to miss her food, she was such a good cook. i wish i got to tell her how much i loved her cooking alot more than i did.

listening to slipknot and its making me miss my ex (butch lesbian). when we met in person he was wearing a slipknot tshirt, i gushed over slipknot's self titled with him in a music store the same day, he picked up a mick thompson funko pop in a comic book store and i thought he had picked up a joey jordinson one and asked if it was joey and he was so confused when i asked. i wish we got to talk about slipknot more. nobody around me is a slipknot fan beyond knowing a few songs. it shouldnt be this hard to find a fucking slipknot fan to talk to for fucks sake!

i hate watching slipknot perform live in the 2000s - it makes me sad knowing i will never get to see the OG line up. also the tickets were probably cheaper back then. but i cant stop watching them live, they just had so much energy.

i did manage to make some friends at uni, although alot of them are graduating in a few months so i wont be seeing them again in the new year. kind of bummed out about that but im trying to keep in contact with them.